Josh has been working for NGS for about a year and a half! it has been GREAT!! It has been great in a since that He's providing for all our needs without any assistants from the state, he's doing what he loves WHERE he wants to do it, he's got his foot in the door where he hopes that one day he will be working in the communications department with NGS!! There have been so so many amazing blessings with this new JOB. I like to tell people when prompted how it all started. It started with a humble prayer!! I remember everything about that day and the events that followed after that prayer. There is something amazing about pouring your heart and soul out to your Heavenly Father and sincerely asking for change and a better JOB and allowing your mind and spirit to accept whatever answer when given. I am often reminded about what my Mission President said to me a long time ago. I found myself in a situation where on my mission an intruder had violated me as a missionary. I remember after that incident on that intruders behalf, I needed to do everything in my power to lawfully track down this intruder. I filed a complaint at the police station and found words that I never studied before as a missionary coming out of my mouth explaining the incident that occurred. I had it written on paper, found witnesses, etc... And all this while my spirit had been hurt and violated. But I remember I needed to do all I could according to the laws of the land. Later that evening I talked to my mission Prez and he asked me what I felt I needed to do. My answer was, " Well whatever the Lord wants me to do"! He than said Sister Parrish," it doesn't work that way Sister Parrish. You have your free agency to choose. What are your personal desires and wants. Explain those things to The Lord and ask him for them. And if he sees fit, he will grant those things to you. He than explained to me, probably due to my confusion. He said Sister Parrish lets just say you fell in love with a nonmember guy and there you are asking Heavenly Father if he is the one and if he be the one to marry. Heavenly Father already knows that you love this man, he won't forsake you and say, this marriage is to doom, but he will tell you he will help you both according to your obedience, but remember it was your desire in the 1st place to date a non-member. I don't know if this makes since, but I was reminded "Yes, I have the free agency to choose for myself what life I want. There really isn't a pre-set plan of my life, life changes with each new decision I make and I learned that if I make righteous choices according to the things I have already been taught and according to my beliefs, things are going to be just fine! So, back to that Prayer!! I told Heavenly Father all my wants and desires!!
I remember telling him how grateful I had a husband who loved me and our children, who wanted me to be home to raise them, who wanted me to grow in light and knowledge, who loved me, who loved the gospel, etc... I know what my hubby is capable of and how much more he is able to do. And as his spouse I feel that I have that sacred privilege to help him become the BEST person he can be!
So, with this prayer I poured out all our wants and desires and said "we are Ready Heavenly Father!! This is what we want, please provide us with an opportunity to have those things". Well, that opportunity came knocking on our door a week later. Josh and I jumped on board and have been prayerful and thankful with each new step we have taken to get us to where we are now.
It really hasn't been easy on both our parts. I've had family make fun of our decisions and our outcome. I've felt betrayal from family because at that time when they asked why we were doing what we were doing, I had told them. And I earnestly told them our desires and excitement!! told them, we would have security, a savings, a pension, and most importantly Josh could take care of us and if anything ever tragic were to happen, the kids and I would just be fine. I expressed these views to friends and family, so yes it hurt to hear them talk down and hear opinions that made fun of what we were shooting for. That really has been the hardest thing to deal with, but Josh and I are still so Thankful for his Job, but most importantly to our Heavenly Father and Prayer! We know he lives and loves us!!! We know that though strick and unwavering obedience, we are Blessed!
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